As I was packing, I fretted over whether or not I should take my laptop. I work full-time and so I have to squeeze in my writing time wherever and whenever I get the chance. In the past, I would get in a few hours of writing time while my husband does the driving. My husband said he didn't mind if I take it, but the idea of bringing it just didn't seem right.
Lately, the Lord has been dealing with me about spending (quality) time with my family. I wouldn't be able to give them my full attention if I was in the middle of a scene and I had to cut it short for dinner, a scenic view, conversation, etc. I would be torn with guilt and thoughts that I was either short-changing my family or my writing. I know, because I've dealt with these feelings in the past.
I decided to leave the laptop at home. As a result, I got no writing completed over the weekend, but I did have a wonderful time with my family and created new memories that I will always cherish. I came home with a new writing reference book, new story ideas, and had developed more in my spiritual growth.
In putting my writing aside for a few days, I was able to see some things that the Lord has been trying to show me. At one time in my life when I was writing for the secular market, I put my writing above everything else in my life--including God and my family. I didn't realize I was doing this, but now I see it. I was obsessed with writing and becoming published. In some ways it became an idol in my life and the Lord was not pleased. Therefore, He took away my desire to write and for three years I didn't write at all. Only after I changed my attitude, restored God at the head of my life where He belongs, and experienced a renewing of my faith, did the desire to write come back. Now I am trying to establish my writing voice as a CBA author instead of an ABA author.
My latest manuscript was rejected by Steeple Hill because they felt it didn't have enough faith interwoven in the storyline. My agent suggested that I could retool it for the ABA market. Over the weekend, the theme of reaching more people outside of the ministry keep being reiterated during various conversations with people I had just met. The point is that most people who are already going to church and reading Christian fiction and nonfiction have already been touched by God or they wouldn't be going to church and reading Christian material. Could I reach more people in the secular market? How much faith would I be allowed to write in my books? Could I be a bridge writer that crosses over to both the CBA and ABA markets?
While I don't have the answers to these questions, I am now considering them and searching....
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